I wonder how many times I’ve met her
Because only her kiss felt like home
I wonder if she knows how long I’ve searched for her soul
I wonder if in a past life we walked passed each other
Unbeknownst to us that together we’re like yellow sapphire
I wonder how many poems I’ve written before
Because I know in every life I’ve longed for her
Love is a tethered cord that connects us like electrons
An ionic bond that transcends this plane of reality with its effects on us
Beyond all rationale
Against the risk of crafting our own personal hell
I walked around aimless and overflowing
Before I met her
Flooded with details I had always been knowing
I wonder if in the multiverse our older selves exist
Sitting in that cottage in France like she’d always wished
I wonder if we’d ask what they would tell us
But still a part of me wishes we don’t
Because there’s serinity in the pain of irrationality and discovery
I wonder if she knows I play videos of her talking to fall asleep
Her voice perfectly tuned with the frequency for my peace
At first I couldn’t believe you were real
Maybe that’s why I struggled to open my car door when you stood in front of me
In your emerald dress and red bottom heels
I could never find the words to express how I feel
So I turned to poetry to write about how you saved me from my ordeal
Even when I messed pasta sauce on my red tie despite it being our first date
She looked at me like I was everything
With a love I never had to translate
I wonder if she knows I could not fall out of love
And I wonder what this life has in store for us
If we should reach our end
I’d cherish our time spent
But do not expect a goodbye
Because we’d meet again in the next life as different people
I’d still call her my jaan and stare into her familiar eyes
The kind I know I’ve loved in every life time
